Feeling Free

Today I'd like to include an excerpt from a book I'm reading.  It explains what I'm going through right now and for some reason it says it better than I could explain. 

"....Your freedom is now dependent on your forgiveness.  Coming to this conclusion usually takes us a while.  We see all kinds of dangers and risks involved in forgiving others.  For instance, what they did was really wrong, whether they admit it or not.  They may not even be sorry about it.  They may feel perfectly justified in their actions, even going so far as to blame you for it.  But forgiveness doesn't absolve anyone of blame.  It doesn't clear their record with God.  It just clears you of having to worry about how to punish them.  When you forgive another person, you're not turning them loose.  You're just turning them over to God, who can be counted on to deal with them His way.  You're saving yourself the trouble of scripting any more arguments or trying to prevail in this situation.  It's not about winning and losing anymore.  It's about freedom.  It's about letting go."
"....But how do you do it?  You release your anger and the responsibility for judging this person to the Lord.  'Never take your own revenge, beloved, but leave room for the wrath of God, for it is written, "Vengeance is Mine, I will repay," says the Lord' (Romans 12:19)"

All of that to say I consider myself free of any past hurt or pain and a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.  I am free!